July 19- 2004

I am sitting in the Las Vegas airport. It is Monday night-- our flight is supposed to leave at 5:30 p.m. Things are not looking good.  People were bumped from flights, etc..............all I know, we better get on our flight. As it is, I will not be arriving to JFK airport until 1:30 a.m. I am going to be exhausted. Then- I have to do cardio, train, and teach a step class tomorrow. Oh boy---it is going to be one of those days. Plus- I have a ton of work to do.
 
I am starting on Jennifer Abrahams members gallery. So- keep an eye out. I should have it completed by the end of the week. I just updated Amanda's members gallery--so, check out her beautiful off-season photos at 13 weeks out from the Jr. Nationals. I seriously got no work done while I was in Las Vegas, computer wise.
 
However, My GIRL- Tera Guzman won her weight class at the USAs. I was so happy. I worked with her on diet, posing, and her hair and make-up. She looked amazing. I am convincing her to do Nationals. I really think she can get her pro-card there. I am confident that she has what it takes to win the lightweight class. She has the best shape. We just need to fine tune her posing and she will be unbeatable.  The funny thing, I never thought of myself as a make-up artist, but I love it. She looked so good.
 
I also choreographed the ripped to the bone, Deb Widdis's posing routine. She was by far the most RIPPED bodybuilder in the show. However, it seems they were looking for a softer look.  So, it turned out that she didn't get to do her posing routine. However, she has a cool routine for the next show.
 
Between helping Tara, Deb and Dave I had my hands full. On top of that I had to do cardio twice a day and train. Needless to say, I am exhausted.
 
My last and final comment-- the Alexis Park was by far the worst hotel of all time. The air conditioning didn't work, they didn't have 24 hour room service, and the bed was only a queen size. Never again- we are staying at a casino hotel from now on.
 
Never a dull moment. I am looking forward to some up and coming photo shoots with Brain Moss  ( hopefully to appear in Muscular Development ) and www.musclemoods.com-- a new website.
 
Thanks for all those fans out there ordering pics, etc.........................I want you to know that I appreciate your love.
 
Once final note, Dave and I shot with Diana Dennis on Sunday. It was amazing. We took some great pictures together. I will put that up next week. They turned out amazing.
 
 

July 15, 2004

Hello everyone!

I am off to Las Vegas. I am helping Tera Guzman and Deb Widdis with their Posing Routines. I choreographed some funky stuff for these two. I have to get up at 4:30 a.m -- Off to the gym. I am going to train before I get on the plane. This way- All I have to do is more Cardio when I get to the HOTEL. I am staying at the Alexis Park- the host hotel. I am going to be pretty busy- With doing cardio, training, dieting, helping my GIRLS, and Helping DAVE!

I am also going to see my good friend Malea Jensen. She is going out to Vegas to cheer on our friends competing in the show. I am actually predicting that Lori Ottenad will get her Pro-Card this year. She is long overdo and I just have a feeling.

It is the first year since 2001 that I am not doing the USAs. It feels weird, but at the same time, I am relieved. I am not ready -- and never could have been with my SLOW start to diet. But- I just had too many close calls at that show- from winning it two years in a row and then placing second. Who knows!

I am going to take a ton of pics while I am out in VEGAS. I have too- I need some updates! I added some training pics- so, more to come on that front.

I will keep you all posted- I am bringing my labtop.

July 7, 2004

It is great to be HOME. You know the saying, it holds true. I am trying to get everything done- before I leave for the USAs. I swear, I feel like I live out of a suitcase. It is fun, but makes dieting and training a challenge.

I am looking forward to helping my GIRL- Tera Guzman compete as a lightweight FBB. She looks amazing. I am working on her routine today-- DAMMIT, I am going to finish it and send it to her--before tonight. I didn't do a thing while I was home, I needed to chill. I am more motivated and refreshed. It is amazing what a break can do.

I added some of the clips from the video I sent Deb Widdis-- her posing routine. They are in my contest road sub gallery of my members section. I know my members have lost patience- I need to get my ass in shape. That is why the updates have been so SLOW. But, I will keep adding fresh never before seen stuff- so, don't lose the faith.

Plus- I am in the dieting mode- it took a while, but I am in the zone.

I have to run- I am going to finish this routine for Tera if it kills me.

July 6- 2004

Life! Or something like that, right? I just don't want to get into my daily drama. Those that know me--------know that it is never a dull moment in the "DAY IN THE LIFE." When I was working with Kara Dunsbury on the documentary on Female Bodybuilding, she tried to convince me to do a reality television series because my life was so insane. In retrospect, she was and still it right, no matter if I live in New York City or Long Island. Regardless, I wasn't interested. I don't think people would believe that this was someone's REAL LIFE.

I really can't get into all the drama. Much, I have to leave undisclosed. But, let me tell you, this is the best yet. I just take my life one day at a time. That is all I can do right now.

I had a wonderful time in Detroit. My parents are amazing. That is just the bottom line. That treated me like a QUEEN. I am so relaxed when I go to HOME. I was shooting two future MALE bodybuilders for a new website- www.massivemusclemedia.com. It is going to be a HOT new site for Male Bodybuilders. I mean, isn't it about time they have a website profiling their hot bodies, not just the ladies.

I am pressing on-- dieting, not sure for what at this point-- just pushing as hard as I can. I am in the torture mode. There is so much going on-- that I need something to focus on and keep me grounded. There is something about the insanity of a contest prep diet and training schedule that keeps your life in some sort of normalcy. If that can be possible when you are waking up to egg whites or chicken in the morning.

So, I leave you with this thought. In a world full of chaos , you need to wake up and know who YOU are no matter what the outside influences.